omfg, k today im deciding i will blog about how fuckin idiotic of a person i am.
in grade 8, i came to a new school. i was all emo kid and retarted. and OBSESSED. anyways, the teacher welcomes me, shows me my locker, then the table i'd be sitting at with 3 other peeople. that was the first time i saw him. not gonna lie, i didnt immediately "fall in love" with the kid, but i thought he was cute.
i realized that on his binder it said his last name, and i happened to say it correctly, he then asked me how i knew to say it. i replied with the statement of that i was polish and my mother had that last name before she married my dad. he didnt believe me. then, OF COURSE I HAD TO BE ALL RETARTED, i said that we're related. i didnt leave him alone with that, and kept scaring the poor guy about being cousins. when i look back on this, i literally wanna stab myself in the fuckin face.
i kept on going like this for about 2 months, and he didnt wanna be around me anymore, he thought i was fucked up in the head, and i should get some help. i dont blame him. after a while, i stopped harassing the guy, because i thought i was "in love" like some fan girl of the jonas brothers. I WAS OBSESSED WITH THIS GUY. wrote his name everywhere, talked 24/7 about him, stalked him, LIKE WHAT THE FUCK!?!?KEHDSGUYFIS. who the fuck would do that. i went beyond the limit of creepiness. like, i didnt make it anymore fuckin obvious, and of course everyone found out.
he stopped talking to me COMPLETELY. he wouldnt even look at me. and if someone mentioned my name to him, he would grimace. i honestly feel sorry for the guy now cause everyone pressured him to like me, but he really just wanted to be left alone. HE DIDNT LIKE ME, but that obviously didnt get through my head -______-
so one day, theres this party that i decide to go to. i DAZZLE myself up in hoping to, well... for him to notice me? so the party was going great, until i find out something, and i think it was the the end of the world. he asked one of my friends out, and i freaked. i went psycho on a punching bag, and everyone around me thought i was mental. like what the fuckkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. may i point out that im a FUCKTARD. i made a fool of myself in front of everyone including him. like some cry baby that just shitted in its diaper and no ones changing it. HOLY SHIT. so, i talk to him, and i decide to share my feelings. i basically said I LOVE YOU AND I REALLY WANT YOU TO LOVE ME TOO, IVE LOVED YOU SINCE THE DAY I SAW YOU AND I NEVER WANNA LET YOU GO. like seriously, really? why? why? why? but he was so fuckin nice about it, he just said that he doesnt like me in that way, but we could be friends. WELL FRIENDS WASNT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME BETCHES. like why couldnt i just leave him alone, i didnt think i was psycho at the moment. so i caused a lot of drama, and everyone found out i was crying over the guy, and they all felt sorry for me. like some fuckin 5 year old.
but i kept on liking him, and then when they broke up, i thought i was gonna get a shot with him, LMFAO. i know, im a dumbass.
i remember one time, my friend turned around and asked him who he thinks is cooler, me or her. he said me. I THOUGHT I WAS FLOATING ON A CLOUD AND THERE WERE UNICORNS FLYING EVERYWHERE. then my friend said really? he quickly changed his mind and said she was cooler. she turned around, and then he told me that i was cooler, he just didnt want her to be mad at him. i probably looked like a fuckin tomatoe. he was always nice to me, but he just didnt want me to be heart broken. poor poor me -___-.
so grad comes around, and im totally stoked. once again i get all dazzled up, of course, for him to notice me C: i thought i looked hott, but i look at the pictures now and i look like shit. anyways, so after the ceremony there was a dance. fast songs play mostly, and when it came to the slow songs, i was FOR SURE that he was gonna ask me to dance. but he asked this other girl, and of course i had to act all broken hearted. then this other boy comes up to me asking me what was wrong. i told him that he was dancing with another girl and he will never ask me to dance. this boy promised me that he would talk to him, and i was all like: OH NO, PLEASE DONT, OH WHATEVER SHALL I DO? so he talks to the guy, and FORCES him to dance with me. only because it was grad, and he would never EVER have to do it again. pretty good deal. so this other girl comes up to him, and he pushes her away, then walked towards me, which i thought was pretty sweet :$ and we danced. i was like stuck on him, and i wouldnt let go. OMFG, when i see some of the pictures, i look like a fuckin fag. like HOLY SHIT, can i get anymore desperate? after that night, i never washed myself, KIDDING. but i was happy, yet i didnt realize that we would be going to high school next year and that'd he meet other girls, and totally forget about me. not that he thought of me.
so i decided to get over him. NOBODY BELIEVED ME THOUGH. like whenever i tried to convince them, they'd just say sure, cause really who would get over a guy after liking them for that long? although it wasnt really liking, it was like, loving, and obsessing. :S God, im such an idiot.
sooo, after summer, school came along, grade nine. the torture was, seeing him everyday at my bus stop, and facing him with the embarassment of last year. like whenever i looked at him, i just wanted to get runover by a car, or hit by a bull, or stabbed repeatedly in the face. like thats how fuckin embarassed i was. but i was seriously over him. there were new guys, and more attractive ones. he was always cute though :)and so that year, i had a boyfriend, and i tried out "new experiences" and totally forgot about him but before i had a mini crush on him when i saw him in a video and he had muscles. other than that i totally forgot about him except when i saw him at the bus stop, and in between halls, and at the park. but those are exceptions.
anywaysssss, one day. my bullshit of a friend, and my other friend decide to come over to my house at 9pm. they had a surprise for me, and out he came! there he was again, hugged me on my front doorstep, infront of my father. i was so fuckin red, and smiling like a clown. do you know what i said? DO YOU KNOW WHAT I SAID? is this a dream? omg, this isnt real. and yes i said this all out loud. i thought i was in lala land. like i thought embarassing myself infront of this guy was over. it wasnt. so we all decide to go for a walk while i embarassed myself even more, although it turns out he was high on peppers? i didnt like him at that time, i just thought he was hott. but i did embarass myself, and yet again i had to face him at the bus stop.
i always fuckin stutter infront of this guy, i cant look at his face, and i always smile. ALWAYS. but he did look hott that time. yeah, so i basically had a fucked up grade 8 year cause of my retartedness. oh, and today, i saw him again, i couldnt look at his face. high five for me! atleast i didnt say anything retarted.
so basically, we are not meant to be, but i heard people are betting that we will go out before grade 12. i hope they arent betting with money, cause they will lose sooooo bad. BY THE WAY, he is so hott now. well his body. just wanted to get that off my chest. there you have it. remember kids, never say what you are actually feeling about a guy when he is there. your luck with boys may turn out to be like mine. but seriously, all of this couldve been avoided, like i didnt have to be obsessed and scare him, we mightve been freinds today, but im a fuck up. maybe he'll forgive me? LMFAO.
thats all.
plus sentence, people think its creepy that i know how to spell his name, but its only because i went to polish school for 8 years.
i like trolls.
ITSBERNABETCH, call me ;)
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Thursday, August 13, 2009
job hunting with inga betches :)
ok, so today, me and inga went off to search for jobs cause we're broke and we need some moula. our trip was off to a great start, you know, we ripped off the bus driver by making him think that we're going to the library to read books! LMFAO. you know we used those library cards with the special stickers on them so we can get a bus ride for free (a)
anyways, so we drove to the bus station by the superstore, then took another bus to go downtown, and we miss our stop, so we get off at a stop thats just a couple of meters away from Troys Diner. LOL, we thought that was gonna be our downsider of the day, walking a couple of meters to the store.
once we get there, of course there is a hott blonde guy in a car and i get a vagoner.to ruin it all, we find out that the damn diner is closed, only open till 2 pm. of course inga has to say its all my fault and that im an idiot for not checking the "summer schedule". i was like IT WASNT ON THE FCKIN SITE. kay, so since it wasnt opened, we decided to see if any other restaurant needs hiring.
along the way, HOTT SKATER GUYS. omg, there was this one super hott guy, he had blonde hair and blue eyes, and he was a skater and he had muscles, DROOL. dibs! lol, inga wanted to stalk them but i was determined to find a job, but we were too pussy to go to this one cafe, so i was like fck that and we kept on walking till we saw a restaurant called "Brunello" and so we were like lets go see this, but our pussiness came in the way and we were like pissing our selves at the entrance. but they couldnt see us, although im pretty sure they heard us. and maybe the security camera was like WTF??! and there were some hott guys in this picture on the wall.
k, so we finally grow some balls and we go inside, and ask if they're hiring. first of all the lady looked like a prostitute, and she gave us some look, like: YOU ARE NOTA ITALIANA. then she went to get the manager, and he was some mafia dude with the little chest hair sticking out, and he said in his italian accent, how are you, i responded with: fine how about you? ...no answer. he was just staring at us. i was like k... so you hirin or not? he was in like utter shock, like he was : whata fucka?! youa coma toa mya restauranta witha noa resumea?! LMFAO, not like that, but he was kinda like, nawh we dont need people but leave a resume. i was like yeah yeah, fck that. so we left, peeing ourselves :)
the day was still young so we kept on walking, and looking at other stores that they can hire us at, and we saw Zellers. LMFAO, SO FUNNY. k, so we come in, inga takes a shit, and then we go to customer service asking for an application. the lady looked like she was about 90 years old with no teeth. k, im gonna say this in the most politest way i can, when she laughed, her whole face went sideways, like she was possessed or something. she laughed cause we werent old enough and told us to come back next year. LMFAO, inga does the best impression of the retarted laugh. AND THE HOTT GUYS WERE THERE AGAIN!\ so after zellers we hopped along to dollorama, and this girl that we thought we knew, we didnt really, cause i thought i did but she was some girl from our school. anyways, she calls in the manager, and not to be mean or anything, but she was huge. "when she first came, i didnt know where her boobs ended or where her stomach started"-inga. and OF COURSE, we needed a damn resume, but they were looking for applications. we got a tip that boston pizza was hiring, but keep reading to see why we didnt go.
so we decided that we would go to superstore, cause EVERYONE works there, but i heard that they pay cheap. yeah, so we got an application, but we realized that you needed to be 15, and inga was like freaking out cause shes still 14. but i wanted to work there just because they were looking for people, you didnt need a resume, its not a far walk, and i was desperate. so we ended up leaving superstore, and went to the bus station, not realizing that they were already done, of course.
so we went to heritage-nothing there, joeys shoeless something- resume, maybe hiring, and then EAST SIDE MARIOS. its like it was calling for us, and ive always wanted to work there cause there a lot of hott guys around. so we went inside and the manager came, looking at us he said "im guessing you're inexperienced" and we were like "how'd you know!?" and he was like " you arent supposed to be coming to look for a a job in the evening when its most busy" we were like ZOMFG, we're retards. but he was kind enough to inform us that they needed people, and that he would give us an application. me and inga were like imagining what we'd do with our money and all that. and when he came with the forms, it was like, it was meant to be, i fell in love. ? wtf. yeah, so we skipped around the entire plaza, delighted to know that people wanted US, ME AND INGA, to work at there restaurant, like if i were them and i was looking at people who looked like me and inga, i wouldve never hired myself. LOL.
yeah, we saw some people, -_-
and then we went to the skatepark, where all the magic happens. OMG , i love boys, like seriously, i love them. and the ones at skatepark- OH MY GOD. beautiful, magical, orgasmic, LMFAO. lets not get carried away. but they were doing their flips and tricks, and i was just staring.
then me and inga sat and just talked how we'd call on eachother at work - BERNA TABLE 5, HOTT GUY, I REPEAT, TABLE 5. - ROGER THAT. dununununununa. LOL.
then we went home, and inga woulddnt stfu :) plus she complained the whole way how she was tired. LIKE STFU. love you inga (L)
LMAO, i scared her cause she was supposed to walk home by herself by the construction with no lights and the big security dog. i told her she'd get attacked, so OF COURSE, inga made me walk her home and then she told me she almost got raped by some guy, and she saw some bunnies. LMFAO.
over all, we had a fun day, walked half of milton, and lost 400 pounds! i bet you anything inga came home and stuffed herself with like all the candy she has in her cupboard.
hopefully, they'll hire us? i dont even know how to write a damn resume :(
plus sentence, i used but so many fckn times, its annoying.
i like trolls.
ITSBERNABETCH, call me ;)
anyways, so we drove to the bus station by the superstore, then took another bus to go downtown, and we miss our stop, so we get off at a stop thats just a couple of meters away from Troys Diner. LOL, we thought that was gonna be our downsider of the day, walking a couple of meters to the store.
once we get there, of course there is a hott blonde guy in a car and i get a vagoner.to ruin it all, we find out that the damn diner is closed, only open till 2 pm. of course inga has to say its all my fault and that im an idiot for not checking the "summer schedule". i was like IT WASNT ON THE FCKIN SITE. kay, so since it wasnt opened, we decided to see if any other restaurant needs hiring.
along the way, HOTT SKATER GUYS. omg, there was this one super hott guy, he had blonde hair and blue eyes, and he was a skater and he had muscles, DROOL. dibs! lol, inga wanted to stalk them but i was determined to find a job, but we were too pussy to go to this one cafe, so i was like fck that and we kept on walking till we saw a restaurant called "Brunello" and so we were like lets go see this, but our pussiness came in the way and we were like pissing our selves at the entrance. but they couldnt see us, although im pretty sure they heard us. and maybe the security camera was like WTF??! and there were some hott guys in this picture on the wall.
k, so we finally grow some balls and we go inside, and ask if they're hiring. first of all the lady looked like a prostitute, and she gave us some look, like: YOU ARE NOTA ITALIANA. then she went to get the manager, and he was some mafia dude with the little chest hair sticking out, and he said in his italian accent, how are you, i responded with: fine how about you? ...no answer. he was just staring at us. i was like k... so you hirin or not? he was in like utter shock, like he was : whata fucka?! youa coma toa mya restauranta witha noa resumea?! LMFAO, not like that, but he was kinda like, nawh we dont need people but leave a resume. i was like yeah yeah, fck that. so we left, peeing ourselves :)
the day was still young so we kept on walking, and looking at other stores that they can hire us at, and we saw Zellers. LMFAO, SO FUNNY. k, so we come in, inga takes a shit, and then we go to customer service asking for an application. the lady looked like she was about 90 years old with no teeth. k, im gonna say this in the most politest way i can, when she laughed, her whole face went sideways, like she was possessed or something. she laughed cause we werent old enough and told us to come back next year. LMFAO, inga does the best impression of the retarted laugh. AND THE HOTT GUYS WERE THERE AGAIN!\ so after zellers we hopped along to dollorama, and this girl that we thought we knew, we didnt really, cause i thought i did but she was some girl from our school. anyways, she calls in the manager, and not to be mean or anything, but she was huge. "when she first came, i didnt know where her boobs ended or where her stomach started"-inga. and OF COURSE, we needed a damn resume, but they were looking for applications. we got a tip that boston pizza was hiring, but keep reading to see why we didnt go.
so we decided that we would go to superstore, cause EVERYONE works there, but i heard that they pay cheap. yeah, so we got an application, but we realized that you needed to be 15, and inga was like freaking out cause shes still 14. but i wanted to work there just because they were looking for people, you didnt need a resume, its not a far walk, and i was desperate. so we ended up leaving superstore, and went to the bus station, not realizing that they were already done, of course.
so we went to heritage-nothing there, joeys shoeless something- resume, maybe hiring, and then EAST SIDE MARIOS. its like it was calling for us, and ive always wanted to work there cause there a lot of hott guys around. so we went inside and the manager came, looking at us he said "im guessing you're inexperienced" and we were like "how'd you know!?" and he was like " you arent supposed to be coming to look for a a job in the evening when its most busy" we were like ZOMFG, we're retards. but he was kind enough to inform us that they needed people, and that he would give us an application. me and inga were like imagining what we'd do with our money and all that. and when he came with the forms, it was like, it was meant to be, i fell in love. ? wtf. yeah, so we skipped around the entire plaza, delighted to know that people wanted US, ME AND INGA, to work at there restaurant, like if i were them and i was looking at people who looked like me and inga, i wouldve never hired myself. LOL.
yeah, we saw some people, -_-
and then we went to the skatepark, where all the magic happens. OMG , i love boys, like seriously, i love them. and the ones at skatepark- OH MY GOD. beautiful, magical, orgasmic, LMFAO. lets not get carried away. but they were doing their flips and tricks, and i was just staring.
then me and inga sat and just talked how we'd call on eachother at work - BERNA TABLE 5, HOTT GUY, I REPEAT, TABLE 5. - ROGER THAT. dununununununa. LOL.
then we went home, and inga woulddnt stfu :) plus she complained the whole way how she was tired. LIKE STFU. love you inga (L)
LMAO, i scared her cause she was supposed to walk home by herself by the construction with no lights and the big security dog. i told her she'd get attacked, so OF COURSE, inga made me walk her home and then she told me she almost got raped by some guy, and she saw some bunnies. LMFAO.
over all, we had a fun day, walked half of milton, and lost 400 pounds! i bet you anything inga came home and stuffed herself with like all the candy she has in her cupboard.
hopefully, they'll hire us? i dont even know how to write a damn resume :(
plus sentence, i used but so many fckn times, its annoying.
i like trolls.
ITSBERNABETCH, call me ;)
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
plans betches :)
OMG, k so tomorrow, me and my lovely friends alicia and inga are going to hang out, YAY! i havent seen alicia in... well a fckin long time! im gonna squeeze her, and smell her and touch her when i see her :) anyways, after we chill, me and inga will be off to start our career, at Troys Diner, LOL. well we're going there to apply, hopefully the scary boss, TROY , will see our delicate side towards strangers and HIRE us.
but seriously, i need the job, no joke. i have no money, im broke, and a girl needs to go shopping, but all i have is 35$ and my moms forcing me to save that for shoes. like 8.90$/hour is fine with me! as long as i have some cash and i can buy some stuff. i have no clothes, ive been wearing the same shirt like the whole fckin summer, like WTFRFYHEWYGUYUES. just makes me mad. continuing, LIKE INGA WILL BE HIRED, she talks shit about everyone, even if she doesnt know them, like today. i was walking her home, and halfway, there were some ugly people who were like : this house is stupid, and ugly. or some shit like that, and then inga goes ahead and mocks them, I WAS LIKE HELLO THEY'RE RIGHT THERE DIP SHIT. but thats ok, it is the reason why i love inga. (L)
yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so, um after we apply, we're gonna holla holla at ma gurl CASS-ON-DRA. shall be a fun day,
plus sentence, me and inga are using library cards with the stickers to get on the bus so we wont have to pay :) i dont have one which means my name will be justinA pawlowski. clever eh? hopefully it'll work.
OMG OMG OMG, ok, i went on a walk with my dog and brother at like 10:30 pm and all of a sudden i see some gino guys, i was like YUMMAY, but then i realized they were some douches from my school, but anyways, they made fun of me, and i hate made being fun of :( sadface. THATS ALL :D
i like trolls.
ITSBERNABETCH, call me ;)
but seriously, i need the job, no joke. i have no money, im broke, and a girl needs to go shopping, but all i have is 35$ and my moms forcing me to save that for shoes. like 8.90$/hour is fine with me! as long as i have some cash and i can buy some stuff. i have no clothes, ive been wearing the same shirt like the whole fckin summer, like WTFRFYHEWYGUYUES. just makes me mad. continuing, LIKE INGA WILL BE HIRED, she talks shit about everyone, even if she doesnt know them, like today. i was walking her home, and halfway, there were some ugly people who were like : this house is stupid, and ugly. or some shit like that, and then inga goes ahead and mocks them, I WAS LIKE HELLO THEY'RE RIGHT THERE DIP SHIT. but thats ok, it is the reason why i love inga. (L)
yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh so, um after we apply, we're gonna holla holla at ma gurl CASS-ON-DRA. shall be a fun day,
plus sentence, me and inga are using library cards with the stickers to get on the bus so we wont have to pay :) i dont have one which means my name will be justinA pawlowski. clever eh? hopefully it'll work.
OMG OMG OMG, ok, i went on a walk with my dog and brother at like 10:30 pm and all of a sudden i see some gino guys, i was like YUMMAY, but then i realized they were some douches from my school, but anyways, they made fun of me, and i hate made being fun of :( sadface. THATS ALL :D
i like trolls.
ITSBERNABETCH, call me ;)
i love trolls betches
dear diary,
today me and my wonderful friends, COUGHingaandcassieCOUGH were talking shit about PAULA WYSOCKI, dont be mad paula, deep down we love you, NAWT.
love berna.
plus sentence, i love to tickle trolls
today me and my wonderful friends, COUGHingaandcassieCOUGH were talking shit about PAULA WYSOCKI, dont be mad paula, deep down we love you, NAWT.
love berna.
plus sentence, i love to tickle trolls
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