Tuesday, September 22, 2009

i love men betches

k, so today is september 22, 2009.
its been a while since i wrote on here, so i'll make it worth your while :)
lets start off with how my shitty summer ended -_-
so after all that job hunting and shit with inga, no one ever called us! WHY, EH UH, WHY?!
like i understand why they wouldnt hire inga, but come on, why would you turn away me?! i did pet sitting for 6 years! :O so, that didnt work out, but me and inga didnt even bother to look for more jobs...
i spent the rest of my lovely summer nights with inga...in her room....on her bed... well not in her room, outside...on a jog... to try to lose weight? LMFAO. yeah, so we didnt actually jog, but we speedededed walked, and it was pretty funny cause we talked shit about everyone :D
then there came school, and summer was over, and i missed those nights, with inga, and cassie, in cassies room, with the blackout, and the fuckin evil cat, jasper *twitch. LMFAO, he hissed at inga.
anyways, semester one: history (WITH CASSIE MOTHA FUCKAS), english, civics, lunch b (WITH ALICIA MOTHA FUCKAS), and family and social living.
semester two: math, religion, lunch a(WITH CASSIE&INGA MOTHA FUCKAS), science, art (WITH INGA MOTHA FUCKAS). locker#2052
thats my grade 10 schedule. hopefully it'll be my year :) (going pretty good so far, just the dramas already starting -_-)
LMFAO, i drive inga from and back to school everyday, and i black mail her with it (a)

recent news?

i went shopping, my dad gave me $100, i only bought 4 items, LIKE WTF?! "this is why i need to get a job"- inga.

im trying to lose weight again -_-, have lost 7 pounds, 23 more to go :D
(eat, eat. eat- eat= no more)

omfg, the homeworks alreeady piling up, i have a fuckin assignment from every class, 3 FROM ENGLISH :

k, so this ones a long point. have you ever had that kind of friend that you cant let go, although you have solid reasons to let them go? well thats happening to me. i just cant seem to let go. everyones fuckin complaining, like i dont know what to fucking do. on staurday, i hung out with one of my friends, and now we're so much tighter than before. we found out we had a childhood past, we just never knew it, and we talked about some deep shit. my mama once told me that when you gots a tight friend, dont eva eva let em' go, cause when you gots no friends, who you gonna bake cookies fo? yeah, so we got pretty tight, and i consider her as one of my best friends, i dont know how she feels, but im gonna make her think i am ;)
anyways, my other friend went over to this guys house, who i absolutely hate, and i made an excuse that i was gonna hang out with my other friend, cause i just didnt wanna be there. so i told her that im gonna pick her up after, cause i have to be home at 9 and my mom knows we're walking together. whatever, i leave, and i go to the skatepark with my other friend. we go get some starbucks, talk talk talk, then i call the guy and tell him to tell my friend to turn on her fuckin phone cause i need to go home soon. thinking it was a joke, he was being a total ass hole.
it was getting pretty fucking late, and so i went to the guys house to pick up my friend, just like i said. turns out they're not even there, and find out they're at his friends house, which is across fuckin town. me and my friend mission it to the guys house, trying to call and text my friend. at this point, i am fuckin pissed. like the only reason i went there was to bitch at her and fuckin tell her to never fuckin talk to me again. i also wanted to make this guy see why im fuckin pissed, and that she hasnt seen him in 6 months, and all of a sudden hes calling her back? like how much of a fuckin idiot can you be? and like i couldnt understand the fact why she chose him over me? and she saw me walk away, she couldve walked with me, but whatever.
whats done is done. theres some damage, that i can honestly say, probably wont be fixed. the problem in all of this, shes saying sorry, and like what the fuck do i say to that? like i wanna let go, and just be friends. not best friends. friends. cause i feel that we've lost that tightness that we used to have. like we used to tell each other everything, and joke around, but she wanted me to be serious, so i got serious. and like, she keeps telling me that she misses him, and wants to go back to him, cause she still has feelings for him. this is girl is fuckin stupid, like why the fuck would you wanna go back to this guy if he used you? i care less about the corny shit that she tells me " i miss him", "but i still like him", 'i dont know what to do". why the fuck are you telling me this? you know i hate the guy, yet you still have the fucking nerve to ask me if you should go back with him? you know what, go the fuck ahead. just dont talk to me. hope he treats you like shit, even though he already did.
DRAMADRAMADRAMADRAMADRAMA

sunday is my 15th birfday, and im planning on going out with my friends to like boston pizza, and then to the fair, but i dunno what the plans are. OH OH OH, im getting an ipod touch, which sounds like im a spoiled bitch, but ive been begging for an ipod for 4 years, and only had a crappy mp3 player, which someone stole. probably that black kid from down the street. im excited though, and i cant wait to see my bffls from sauga :)

OMFG, so theres this hott minor niner, HE IS JACKED TO THE MAX, and hes fuckin sexy. like unbelievably sexy, his mucles and face, and like zazazazazaza, especially for a niner. and theres banana -_-. hes jacked too, but you can tell he hates me, FINE WITH ME MOTHER FUCKER. me and inga made a song about them. its pretty good, and whenever we have lesbian moments we just scream out the minor niners name so it wont go too far :) saggy boobs, dead hair, RACOON, BIG FOOT.
lalalalalalalala.
plus sentence, ingas cousin is fuckin sexy :D

oh yeah, and theres a crush i have. on this boy. hes cute. cassie thinks she'll have him before me. im like YEAH RIGHT. but i like him. and he personalized his "hi". BEAT THAT CA-SSON-DRA.
baahahhahahahgdwyuetruygeuqiow

so thats about it. i love men.
k bye!

MINOR NINER.
sorry, its a twitch, im still waiting for the pills.


ITSBERNABETCH
call me ;) (ahem, minor niner)

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

i look in the mirror and stare at my reflection
why is this so hard, i just want to reach perfection.

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

.

Help, I have done it again
I have been here many times before
I hurt myself again today
And, the worst part is there's no-one else to blame

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold meI am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

Ouch

I have lost myself again
Lost myself and I am nowhere to be found,
Yeah I think that I might break
Lost myself again and I feel unsafe

Be my friend
Hold me, wrap me up
Unfold meI am small and needy
Warm me up
And breathe me

sia- breathe me.